Akira Sendoh 07

Hello AS7, I have been too busy recently to update you. Alot of things happened. I have been spending more time with weiting and staying at home. I guess maybe I am getting more mature and I understand what is really important to me in my life. But weiting is getting very worried about me not doing my tutorials and ot having regular revisions. Therefore we reachd a conclusion that from this week onwards, we can only meet up at most twice a week. I guess I have to agree with her worries. I am lagging in tutorials and I must really take this time to catch up back. I need to get a decent grade this semester to have any chance of achieving my desire of graduating with second upper honours. I am very proud of myself for completing the 21.1km army half marathon yesterday and proving myself to those who did not think that I can complete it. Altough I ended the run with abrasions, leaving myself exhausted & hungry, I am glad to have pushed the limits further up. weiting was really sweet to me, coming to my house with desserts. She accompanied me the whole afternoon and helped me massage my tired legs. Moreover, she sent me to work which was rather out of the way for her. I think that my cappucino heart is improving. Altough it is not perfect, but at least I am showing improvements and I hope that I can achieve consistency in the near future.

Hello AS7, I received a great “jia you” from weiting yesterday. I guess you saw it too right? Do not be envious or jealous. Because it is for keith only. Suddenly, I am surrounded by caring friends after they have viewed what I told you. Thank you all for supporting me. But I think I must specially thank weiting. I guess it is a good feeling to know that you have somebody supporting and caring for you. AS7, do you agree? Thanks to weiting. For your undying and never-ending support, the bright belt and the alot of white ankle socks. I believe I will start wearing them soon. I think my mother is starting to guess if you are opening a specialist shop selling socks. The handphone ear piece is working well. I love it. I love everything you have given me. Thanks for being there for me. i know it is tough doing all these right? Although I always disturb you, I know you are always there for me. Thanks. But one thing. Your silly acts are really very attractive. I love them. Adious.

AS7, I am very tired. I suddenly got the urge to let go of everything and just sleep my life away. I am really overloaded by my 22 AU course. Should I take up another 20 AU course? Can I cope with it? Jonathan, should I? Or should I be like you and be happy with what I have? I am feeling alone and scared now. Alot of questions with no answers. Never have I felt so insecure. Could it be a sign or maturity? Thinking about things I never thought would bother me?

I went for the CV2702 laboratory session just now. And I did not understand anything the laboratory technician was talking about. I was totally lost and alone. I did not know who to look for. So I just came to LWN library to talk to you. I guess even if the whole world was against me, I would still have you. At least you. You would just listen quietly and not answer back. No questions. No enquiries. No doubt. Nothing to rebutt me.

I guess I am losing my motivation and will power. I guess I seriously need the 21km run desperately fast to have ample time and space to think properly without being disturbed. I cant wait for it to come as soon as possible.

Hello AS7, today is the 2nd day of the new school term. I am feeling very lerthagic and lazy and starting to fall asleep during classes already. Thank boon seng for waking me up yesterday but maybe you can be a little more polite instead of just whacking me? keke… I cannot be slacking anymore. In the last 2 semesters, I have slacked too much. Maybe it is the time for me to catch up?  I seriously hope that it is not too late. I am starting to miss alot of tings, think I am getting lovey dovey and mushy. I am beginning to miss some of my friends whom I have not been seeing alot of recently. I am missing basketball. I am missing shopping already when I have only shopped a week ago. But my budget for this month has been burst. I must control until next month. I think I need alot of self-control this month. So to all those around me, please help me to turn on the control button. And gals who only want money, get lost. I am only a poor student.

Hello AS7, I am back from basketball action. Nothing much happened today. Just horse handling and basketball. Nothing really happening or what but I guess I am starting to have a new love in mind already. My new love is neither human nor an item, it is retail therapy. I have fallen in love with shopping. I guess I really need something for me to vent my frustrations and unhappiness on. Recently I found a great place to shop at. I purchased an Armani Exchange shirt for only $34.90 and an Abercrombie & Flitch (A&F) jacket for only $39.90. On top of that, it is on a buy 3 get 1 free offer. Thanks colin for taking another 2 pieces to complete the 4 pieces. Today joey told me that A&F is not a cheap brand like I thought it was. It is an american brand that is on pile with Singapore’s topshop. I did not expect it to be of such a high class. I am loving my new jacket. It is also my reward for getting past every subject in the last semester. Kappa Great Britian jacket in the first semester and A&F jacket in the second. Although I did not do well, at least I scraped through unharmed. I must keep up the tempo. But I do not want to indulge in retail therapy too much. That is why I am setting a monthly limit for myself. $100 is the maximum I can spend a month on anything unnecessary. This includes clothes, gel, wax and others. I must try to control myself before I get out of control. jia you. School starting on monday. sian… I must be a good student this semester. I cannot be enjoying myself all the time. jia you… Can anyone help me to pull through the semester unscarred and untempted?? Anyone??

Today is the ultimate day when I experienced a series of total up and down and boredom. I spent whole day at home alone facing the computer and munching on the tanariva cake and madelines. They taste yummy but they did nothing to help relieve my boredom. But I have to thank carin, shihui and summer for chatting with me on msn the whole afternoon. After that, I got ready to meet audrey. Before that I met up with alan to have my haircut and kangli to update each other on our recent happenings. It is so nice of you to wait with me for audrey to no avail.

audrey. i do not know why u did not come and missed informing me in advance or at least let me know when I sent you a message. I was waiting for ur reply. But I guess the silence is self-explanatory? Maybe it is something I did to irritate you without myself realising it. But I got to thank u anyway. You have made me think about what I really want in the time I was waiting for you. Perhaps I should not be wasting my time doing silly things and irritating people? eugene, yes you joey’s boyfriend, just in case you do not know I am talking about you. I remember the time when we were sitting at philly’s flavours & chatting after i knock off work. I remember why you are keeping your body so fit. And I will try to put that into practice, starting with the 21km run. I must at least cut down my tummy and increase my muscle mass. At least I have got an aim in mind now.

In additon to that I got to thank you kangli, for accompanying me all night and putting up with my vulgarities. I think I am really very pissed off recently. I am always in a bad mood. I guess I need some anger management sessions. Or maybe some cooling off from the work at bakerzin will help? I need time off. I need people to accompany me on my off days. So who is on to accompany me? I am feeling very lonely and helpless. Can someone rescue me from this black hole of loneliness??

Today is the ultimate day when I experienced a series of total up and down and boredom. I spent whole day at home alone facing the computer and munching on the tanariva cake and madelines. They taste yummy but they did nothing to help relieve my boredom. But I have to thank carin, shihui and summer for chatting with me on msn the whole afternoon. After that, I got ready to meet audrey. Before that I met up with alan to have my haircut and kangli to update each other on our recent happenings. It is so nice of you to wait with me for audrey to no avail.

audrey. i do not know why u did not come and missed informing me in advance or at least let me know when I sent you a message. I was waiting for ur reply. But I guess the silence is self-explanatory? Maybe it is something I did to irritate you without myself realising it. But I got to thank u anyway. You have made me think about what I really want in the time I was waiting for you. Perhaps I should not be wasting my time doing silly things and irritating people? eugene, yes you joey’s boyfriend, just in case you do not know I am talking about you. I remember the time when we were sitting at philly’s flavours & chatting after i knock off work. I remember why you are keeping your body so fit. And I will try to put that into practice, starting with the 21km run. I must at least cut down my tummy and increase my muscle mass. At least I have got an aim in mind now.

In additon to that I got to thank you kangli, for accompanying me all night and putting up with my vulgarities. I think I am really very pissed off recently. I am always in a bad mood. I guess I need some anger management sessions. Or maybe some cooling off from the work at bakerzin will help? I need time off. I need people to accompany me on my off days. So who is on to accompany me? I am feeling very lonely and helpless. Can someone rescue me from this black hole of loneliness??